Recently I was featured in the National Post in regards to Participatory Medicine. You can find the article here... the-expert-patient-who-knows-best-the-doctor-or-the-patient
The article of course like many only touched the tip of the iceberg. I don't blame Mr. Blackwell that the article makes me look like an arrogant ass, because I am one, but I have good reason to be the way I am. The concept of Participatory Medicine is sound. Doctors and patients working together for the best interest of the patient. It is great when it works. But not everyone can participate without understanding how the Business of Medicine works.
*WARNING - some of the stunts performed here were done by an untrained professional. Do not attempt these types of stunts unless you are sure of your abilities.*
I will apologize now to my friends dealing with 'cog fog'. I have a feeling this will be long.. but I will keep it in short paragraphs to help ease the eye strain. But if you want to survive the medical system, you should read it all.
I learned Participatory Medicine the hard way. I was never sick before in my life. I have had plenty of injuries. Injuries are different. If you go into a hospital emergency room with your arm hanging off, you get treated. If you go in having a heart attack, you will be treated. Now if you go in with a stroke, and they deem it is not one, then you are sick, and you are not treated. You are tested.
The test starts as soon as you walk in, or are carried through the door. How you respond will determine the outcome. Start by thinking of it as a game. You need to play to survive. But no where does it say you have to play by the rules. For most people with MS, it can take more than 10 years to get a diagnosis from onset. This is only due to not knowing how to play the game. Or playing on the wrong field.
You first need to realize that doctors do not know everything about medicine. It would be impossible. They are taught a basic understanding of medicine and how to look up information. At one time it was big books. Now it is a computer and they use Google and sites like webmd.com. I once had a doctor lay a great big book on my legs so he could see it as he put the top of my arm back in place from the the middle of my chest. Now I have a doctor that uses the Symptom Checker on webmd. Is there a difference? There is one major difference in that the information found on the internet is current.
Doctors are suppose to stay current with their medical training. But, not all do. Many rely on others to teach them. And as far as doctors are concerned, patients are not smart enough because those old books and their teachers say so. Doctors rely on other doctors for information on occasion, but take more information from people that know less than the patients in most cases. These would be the pharmaceutical reps. They are not medical people, they are sales people. Nothing more. They will also sell other things when they can't get work pushing a drug. As reps they are sent pamphlets and brochures, and in some cases may even be given some basic classes on how to best sell that particular drug. Two weeks after they have exhausted the market and are no longer needed, they could be back to selling vacuum cleaners or pet food. (not knocking those industries as I have worked in both)
The problem doctors have now is that patients have access to the same information as the doctor. A patient that is suffering from a particular illness, will undoubtedly have access to even more information as they will be looking for it. One patient is a very small percentage of a primary care doctor's practice. You may have MS, but he also has patients with heart disease, diabetes, cancer and so on. He can not know everything about your illness, and if you take the time to learn, you will know what he never will unless you are prepared to teach him.
There are good doctors and there are bad ones. An example of a good doctor is one that answers a questions with, "I don't know, but I will find out." A great doctor would say, "Let's look it up together." A bad doctor leaves the room, (to check webmd), and come's back and says, "this pill should help." A shitty one just says, "You need this prescription." that just happens to be the same as the brochure on his desk. Now which doctor do you have? I have had them all.
Now the difference between myself and Tom Blackwell, is that he has editors, a legal team, and advertisers to worry about. I don't. As long as I am not lying, I can say anything I want. When people get upset with it, it is only because the truth hurts and they know they can't stop it. Unless they want to shut down the internet.
I came into this illness knowing nothing, I played the game and they played mine, but I have maintained one stipulation. No narcotics. Doctors are taught that patients will lie and fake illnesses to get pills. I am very upfront in the beginning with any doctor. I do not want a prescription for narcotics. Every doctor I have met is told that. The only narcotic prescription I have ever had filled in my life was for Sativex. It is not a drug, it is a cannabis extract that is legal in Canada if you have MS, but stupidly is treated as a narcotic. My reason is simple. I do not drink to excess because I do not like losing my cognitive function, I refuse narcotics for the same reason. Also not surprising is that both alcohol and narcotics are easily addictive. I already have enough problems.
I have little tolerance for stupidity and even less patience with a 'wait and see' approach to anything. I am more than sure that I have pissed off more doctors than have pissed me off. But I played their game and made them play mine. From the emergency room I left with 5 Prednisone pills in my hand and no explanation of what it might be causing this major meltdown. I then went home and looked the drug up, before I put the first one into my mouth. I checked the side effects and what it was used for. Then over the next five days I started looking up all of the symptoms online. When I went back, I had an idea of some of the things that it could be, so I wasn't overly shocked to hear him say it could be ALS or the worse case of MS he had ever seen. The only thought that came to my mind was, figures.
I was then informed that it could take me years to get an actual diagnosis. That become an instant concern that I was not going to tolerate especially in this day and age. Waiting years to get a diagnosis creates a major inconvenience when your company's long term disability has a clause that says no payments until a confirmed diagnosis. Being unable to work, makes survival hard, so I had to resort to other means. I had a family doctor at the time as I was given a prescription for Effexor a couple years earlier for what I know know was my first MS attack. So this family doctor was only ever used to refill the prescriptions. I went to him from the hospital with report in hand with the recommendation that I be sent as soon as possible for an MRI.
His response was that it was a waste of time as he knew exactly what was wrong with me and that an MRI would show nothing. So I told him I wasn't asking for a referral, but that he was writing it regardless what he thought. He wrote it, but then proceeded to tell me that it wouldn't help as I was only depressed. My instant response was, "So you are telling me that depression causes physical pain?" He said .. "yes". So I had to ask, "does physical pain causes depression?" Not in my case as he told me he was 99.9% sure he was correct as we walked to the reception desk. Where he proceeded to write me a prescription for Oxycontin for my imaginary pain. He was fired very loudly in a filled waiting room, and actually ran away as he thought I was going to kill him.
Thankfully he has been removed from our medical system, but not before he let someone die of cancer by continually telling them it was all in their head. So Dr. Zaman would be an example of a really shitty doctor and that is where I started. Walking out of his office I realized that the only one that was going to look out for me was me, and they were in for a big surprise.
One week after the referral was sent, I called the Imaging Department at the hospital. It normally takes 3 to 6 months to get an MRI from the time the referral was sent. A week later, I was in the machine. I called and asked if my referral had been received and if so what day that week would my appointment be and that the time didn't matter. I did that 5 more times to the same place over the next year and a half. I was polite and firm and they were more than willing to accommodate. MRI machines are not used all the time, in most cases they are not utilized to even half their potential. You can be fit in.
So I got a new doctor, that seemed to be in the good category as he was the one that met me in the ER when I first went. He later turned out to be a great doctor when he started admitting what he didn't know, and realized he wasn't going to be able to lie and researched along with me. I used myself as a guinea pig. Out of desperation. We started with symptom management going on the assumption that is was MS and not ALS as I was having pronounced relapses on top of rapid rate of decline in motor skills. I was getting some relief illegally by using cannabis. My doctor knew this and understood my reasoning but would not sign my required forms for Health Canada without an official diagnosis. So I played the game. I took the pills that didn't work, but only after I checked the safety of them. But I also went to him with medication suggestions that we could try. We discussed everything and tried some crazy shit. But I played and I learned and I taught.
I saw two neurologists that both said it looked like MS, but they could not give the diagnosis as only a 'specialist' from the clinic in Halifax could do that. So Mr. MacDougall (not qualified for Dr. title) as a so-called specialist tells me that it is impossible for me to have MS as I am not a female and MS does not cause pain. Now that is what he told me and my better half, which I relay to my doctor which of course stuns him. Then Mr. MacDougall sends his report that was nothing but complete lies. Meanwhile during all of this, I am getting progressively worse and still have no money coming in on top of weekly trips to the hospital for blood work to rule out other diseases that could cause neurological symptoms. Yahoo... I don't have HIV or anything else for that matter other than an expected decrease in vitamin D.
So off I go to the neurosurgeon on another referral to see if he could make sense of my very strange MRI report. He couldn't help me as he could not understand it either. And there lies the biggest part of the problem with the medical industry. No one understand how an MRI works. MS diagnosed by MRI is by the appearance of several bright white spots known as lesions. These are considered to be the scars from the supposed auto-immune system attacking it. I have never had several white spots, I have one that covers the entire right temporal lobe. I asked myself a simple question of how does an MRI work, then I went looking for the answer. I found it and I also found out that those white spots were in fact deposits of iron. This was also later found to be previously proven with a study on MS cadavers.
Within the first year I had seen two neurologists, a neurosurgeon, a hearing and an eye specialist, a pain specialist, two surgeons and a quack from the MS Clinic. Of that group, one helped me and I almost had to beg to get that, but instead of begging, I worked out a deal. She could do a nerve block if the CT-Scan showed stenosis in the nerve, but if it didn't, then she had to do a lumbar puncture for me so I could get a definitive diagnosis regardless the pain and difficulty wit compressed disks. I had the lumbar puncture 2 months later and a confirmed diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis 2 weeks after that.
So in one and a half years, I went through all of those medical professionals, over 200 blood tests, x-rays, CT-scans, 6 MRI's and biopsies taken to rule out things like Lupus. I literally took thousands of pills with the highest being at the end with 27 per day which 5 were for the side effects from the other 22. And the only thing I found out in that time was that I was becoming much smarter than they were and that cannabis was the only thing that worked. I have read over 10,000 medical websites and publications. Mostly to do with MS and neurological disorders but a big slew of other disorders as well. I asked questions on over 350 websites and forums to try and get answers of why I have MS but only 1 giant lesion.
It paid off, I got an answer from a very nice retired gentleman that told me I was looking in the wrong books and that I should be looking in forensic pathology books. So I did and that is where I started to find it, which is probably what put me into the hospital and resulted in my useless surgery. But seriously, it throws you for a loop when you find out that all others with your condition have all died within six months of onset and you have beaten them by over a year. It then becomes the constant thought of, is this the last day?
So another relapse and I end up with what I think is a ruptured appendix, which they diagnosed as multiple cancer tumors on my small intestine, which actually turned out to be my MS closing off the small intestine making digestion impossible. So now not only do I know I am going to die, I also know how. Just not when. I got the staples out a week later and we went out west on vacation. We spent a week with awesome people and had a great time. Remember, in an earlier blog, I stated that people with MS are great at lying, well I pulled off the best one in that in all the time we were having fun, I was the only one that knew how bad it was, and that this would be my last vacation ever. I just made sure I didn't ruin it for anyone else. And now that I have written it, they might see how much I really did appreciate that trip and the importance of that continual blue cloud of smoke hanging around my head.
We come back from our vacation and met Mr. Leckey, who actually started out as a doctor with the confirmation that I have a very aggressive form of the disease. In fact the worse he had ever seen. He became a Mr. when he tried to give me very high doses of a drug that has proven never to work for any progressive forms of the disease, but comes with a very high price tag. When I questioned him on this, his response was that, "false hope is better than no hope." Personally, I think you would be pretty stupid to lie to yourself and that is all that false hope is. But it was Mr. Leckey that actually saved my life, kinda, not really. He pissed me off.
I went home and started ingesting 1 gram a day of concentrated cannabis and started weening myself off all the pharmaceuticals. I no longer needed a wheelchair and I felt great, with all things considered. I continually progressed but I never stopped learning. I learned the triggers for my flares, and how to ease them by using low doses of steroids before the relapse actually happens. It didn't stop the relapses but it did ease the suffering to an extent. I learned that I was deathly allergic to methotrexate and that it will never be near me again.
Then I started to learn how corrupt the medical industry was. I learned that pharmaceutical companies bribe doctors to prescribe their medications, but call it honorariums and such. I also learned that no doctor will risk his career for a patients life. Even a great one. I learned that small pharma companies that want to bring products that work to market can't because the big pharma companies wrote the criteria for clinical trials to ensure they could maintain market share. These are the ones that are now making governments pass laws to make the natural remedies which work and are safe, illegal.
I also did online courses through McGill University and became accredited in the Therapeutic Uses of Cannabinoids in a Clinical Setting. I became an associate researcher and now answer questions for doctors. I also make sure I pass on everything I learn.
I learned the vascular theory of MS and that made by far more sense than any theory put out by the so-called specialists that had already lied to me. Then I learned the corruption in politics with my Health Minister condemning me to death without ever speaking to me or without, as she now admits ever talking to anyone that actually knew any thing about the vascular issues. She admits to only ever talking to the neurologists from the MS Clinic. Who are funded by the pharmaceutical companies making billions of dollars a year on drugs that have never been proven to work and in many cases have caused death. The cost for drugs for MS patients has increased by 150% in the last five years. The cost of living only increases 4% per year, if you are healthy.
I had already proven to myself the benefits of cannabis, so I proved the vascular theory. I proved both on myself, and whether one agrees or not, I only have to prove something to myself to know. Any opinions would be moot. You may not believe in ghosts, because they have never been proven to exist, but if you saw one, you would have your proof. Regardless what anyone there after tells you, you know the truth because you have seen it. We are no different. If you denied it to yourself, you would be one of the stupid ones I mentioned earlier. You can not lie to yourself.
I can call myself an expert in MS because I am. I know more about my MS than any doctor. A doctor does not know how it feels to have MS. I do. A doctor does not know the mental impact of MS. I do. A doctor can not tell me when a relapse is going to hit me. I can. Every person with a disease like this will in time become an expert, if they are involved in their health care. If they are not involved, they are not considered patients, but guinea pigs. Expert patients exist and are easily recognized as they are the ones calling the shots and not trusting a greed driven industry.
It can be fixed.
It will be messy, but you can do it. You first need to learn the truth. Then you need to be prepared to speak out and have the politicians do their jobs instead of working for big corporations. Instead of paying the government $44 million to keep from going to court for getting caught paying off doctors, Serona Merck should have had all of their products removed from the country, with no chance of repackaging it for sale again. Anyone else would have been put out of business. Send a message to the pharmaceutical companies to start helping or to get out now.
Have doctors be willing to learn and help and not book 15 minute appointments with only one question to be asked that gets answered with a pill, in order to push through a continuous source of income. Set up advisory committees made up of medical professionals and the people with the life long illnesses to make informed decisions and not base them on hidden agendas.
The idea behind Participatory Medicine is participation between the patient and the health care professional. If one won't participate, it is doomed to fail. For obvious reasons many would want this to fail and would therefore not participate. Not patients. Patients that learn will participate as it is in their best interest. Any doctor such as the ones in our MS Clinic that do not want to participate could easily get work in a different country. Call it taking out the trash and cleaning up healthcare.
We are treated as lower life forms with diminished intelligence, because that is the way it has always been. We are discriminated against and left to die. Or in many cases, rushed to die with ineffective or unsafe medications. All for someone else's personal gain. The only way you will survive is by becoming an expert of your condition.
I didn't start out as an arrogant ass.. they made me that way.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
My Final Blog of the Real Truth of MS
I Win!
All my life I have had to prove myself. Never to anyone else, only to me. We all do it. It would either be to prove that I could do something like jump out of a plane, or better yet, to prove what I thought to be true. In life the only person you ever have to prove anything to is yourself. No one else matters.
Six months ago, I decided against my better judgement, to prove if in fact CCSVI was a key to understanding Multiple Sclerosis and whether or not it could actually prevent death. I made the claim that it would take me 6 months to prove this. I did not do this to save my life, to be honest, I had hoped I was wrong, but I had done my homework and knew that was just wishful thinking. So I had the procedure and proved both now 6 moths later.
Previously, I had already proven that cannabis in sufficient doses could be a safe and effective form of symptom relief in MS. I did this by using Rick Simpson's recipe of extracting all of the essential oils in the cannabis sativa plant and reducing it down to a pure concentrated form. I put this into capsules and each .25 gram capsule delivers the equivalent cannabinoids that you would get by smoking 80 .5gram joints. For the last 2 years, I have been eating four of those pills per day. I lived and more importantly I proved to myself that eating a gram a day of pure concentrate worked to allow me to function. To prove the safety of it, I ate 5 grams per day for 5 days or the equivalent to smoking 8000 joints in 5 days. Yes, that says eight thousand.
Also quite surprisingly, 6 months ago I had informed some very close friends that if the procedure did work, then they would get about 6 months out of me to help find the truth. I feel comfortable in in saying that I have done what I set out to do. In that time I have helped dig out and explain some of the atrocities that people with MS are faced with. But I have also hidden a lot as some of it is even too scary for me to believe.
On May 5, I explained in my blog why I was not allowed to attend the meeting with the Health Minister. I also said it didn't bother me as much as one might think but never explained why. My reasoning for not being upset is that I knew the outcome of the meeting before they even had it. Unlike everyone else that went to those rallies, I had an email a few days before that gave me the Province's official stance on CCSVI and more importantly, aftercare. I sat on this on purpose and I apologize to no one for it. Knowing who was going to be at the rally, this was not released to prevent an escalation of violence. In actuality, I probably saved a life that day because of the lies being fed to us. There will be acts of violence against neurologists and politicians, but they won't be perpetuated by me.
There will not be effective aftercare in Nova Scotia until the trials have passed. Effective care would include testing and in the event of restenosis, angioplasty, These are both specifically excluded as they alone can prove the effectiveness of the CCSVI treatment. In the meantime, this means any of the hundreds of people that have been treated, will not be treated in this province if they experience any restenosis. They will again be forced to leave their country to save their lives because of the greed of our doctors. I won't. I didn't want nor should I have had to leave the country the first time.
People can not understand how a Health Minister could let their constituents die. It is not that hard to understand, when you realize that she admits to never speaking to anyone that actually knows about CCSVI. Her advisers come from the MS Clinic in Halifax. If CCSVI is allowed to be preformed in NS, this place will be closed and that is a ton of money lost. Keeping CCSVI from being allowed is so important that they actually convinced Jock Murray to come out of retirement to help them. For the ones that don't know, Jock is supposedly the country's top MS Specialist. Jock Murray is nothing more than a murderer that got rich off the backs of sick and dieing patients. Nothing more. You can read his bullshit lies .. HERE.
I suppose I could offer a challenge to prove this, but I also know there is no way in Hell he would ever accept it. But if Jock Murray would ever like to meet me in a public form, I will prove that I know not only more about Multiple Sclerosis than him, but that he also is willing to kill people for money. That offer could easily go to the entire clinic as Drs. Leckey and MacDougall have both already proven to be either incompetent or liars, or most likely, both.
Then we come to dear sweet Trudy Campbell whom I have never had this displeasure of meeting. She is not a neurologist, she is the one that actually shoots the poisons into the veins. She is also an advisor/spokesperson to numerous pharmaceutical companies. She actually promotes the off label use of medications that goes directly against Health Canada's policy. She, undoubtedly will be one of the so-called expert advisors. You can read more about Trudy and her friend Freedman .... HERE. Now knowing how much money is actually passing hands through the Halifax MS Clinic, all I can say is if Maureen MacDonald is not getting a cut of it, she is an even bigger idiot than I thought she was.
It is without a doubt that I upset these people, but I know stuff. They don't get mad because of what I am saying about them. They get mad because they know everything I am saying about them is true and it is getting harder for them to hide behind the lies. The first year of medical school does not cover real medicine. It is used to drill into the doctors' heads that their medical boards are God, making them always right and to never go against them, and that patients lie. I have proven that both are untrue. I have no reason to lie and I have yet to meet any doctor that will not let you die to save their own career. There may actually be one or two out there, but I won't meet them in this country.
People are not born smart. They are born with a brain. How that brain develops and how it is used is the key. If you feed a brain lies and propaganda, and not teach it to learn for itself, you get an idiot with an under developed brain. A good example of this would be George W Bush with a published IQ of 95. An IQ of 120 is considered average intelligence. My IQ tests since high school have ranged from 142 to 165. On a bad day, I am still above genius. But I am still stupid. Instead of living a life by making other people rich, I should have done it for myself. My only true regret in life now out in the open. That way I could at least leave Chrissy with something other than debt.
All my life I have had to prove myself. Never to anyone else, only to me. We all do it. It would either be to prove that I could do something like jump out of a plane, or better yet, to prove what I thought to be true. In life the only person you ever have to prove anything to is yourself. No one else matters.
Six months ago, I decided against my better judgement, to prove if in fact CCSVI was a key to understanding Multiple Sclerosis and whether or not it could actually prevent death. I made the claim that it would take me 6 months to prove this. I did not do this to save my life, to be honest, I had hoped I was wrong, but I had done my homework and knew that was just wishful thinking. So I had the procedure and proved both now 6 moths later.
Previously, I had already proven that cannabis in sufficient doses could be a safe and effective form of symptom relief in MS. I did this by using Rick Simpson's recipe of extracting all of the essential oils in the cannabis sativa plant and reducing it down to a pure concentrated form. I put this into capsules and each .25 gram capsule delivers the equivalent cannabinoids that you would get by smoking 80 .5gram joints. For the last 2 years, I have been eating four of those pills per day. I lived and more importantly I proved to myself that eating a gram a day of pure concentrate worked to allow me to function. To prove the safety of it, I ate 5 grams per day for 5 days or the equivalent to smoking 8000 joints in 5 days. Yes, that says eight thousand.
Also quite surprisingly, 6 months ago I had informed some very close friends that if the procedure did work, then they would get about 6 months out of me to help find the truth. I feel comfortable in in saying that I have done what I set out to do. In that time I have helped dig out and explain some of the atrocities that people with MS are faced with. But I have also hidden a lot as some of it is even too scary for me to believe.
On May 5, I explained in my blog why I was not allowed to attend the meeting with the Health Minister. I also said it didn't bother me as much as one might think but never explained why. My reasoning for not being upset is that I knew the outcome of the meeting before they even had it. Unlike everyone else that went to those rallies, I had an email a few days before that gave me the Province's official stance on CCSVI and more importantly, aftercare. I sat on this on purpose and I apologize to no one for it. Knowing who was going to be at the rally, this was not released to prevent an escalation of violence. In actuality, I probably saved a life that day because of the lies being fed to us. There will be acts of violence against neurologists and politicians, but they won't be perpetuated by me.
There will be CCSVI in Nova Scotia. But only after the neurologists and pharmaceutical companies have lost all credibility. That will happen when the trials end to prove it. The only problem you as patients face is that those doctors will continue to try to block these trials from being properly preformed. They already know the outcome and have known from day one. At best, you might be looking at 5 years. Unless other action is taken.
There will not be effective aftercare in Nova Scotia until the trials have passed. Effective care would include testing and in the event of restenosis, angioplasty, These are both specifically excluded as they alone can prove the effectiveness of the CCSVI treatment. In the meantime, this means any of the hundreds of people that have been treated, will not be treated in this province if they experience any restenosis. They will again be forced to leave their country to save their lives because of the greed of our doctors. I won't. I didn't want nor should I have had to leave the country the first time.
I suppose I could offer a challenge to prove this, but I also know there is no way in Hell he would ever accept it. But if Jock Murray would ever like to meet me in a public form, I will prove that I know not only more about Multiple Sclerosis than him, but that he also is willing to kill people for money. That offer could easily go to the entire clinic as Drs. Leckey and MacDougall have both already proven to be either incompetent or liars, or most likely, both.
Then we come to dear sweet Trudy Campbell whom I have never had this displeasure of meeting. She is not a neurologist, she is the one that actually shoots the poisons into the veins. She is also an advisor/spokesperson to numerous pharmaceutical companies. She actually promotes the off label use of medications that goes directly against Health Canada's policy. She, undoubtedly will be one of the so-called expert advisors. You can read more about Trudy and her friend Freedman .... HERE. Now knowing how much money is actually passing hands through the Halifax MS Clinic, all I can say is if Maureen MacDonald is not getting a cut of it, she is an even bigger idiot than I thought she was.
It is without a doubt that I upset these people, but I know stuff. They don't get mad because of what I am saying about them. They get mad because they know everything I am saying about them is true and it is getting harder for them to hide behind the lies. The first year of medical school does not cover real medicine. It is used to drill into the doctors' heads that their medical boards are God, making them always right and to never go against them, and that patients lie. I have proven that both are untrue. I have no reason to lie and I have yet to meet any doctor that will not let you die to save their own career. There may actually be one or two out there, but I won't meet them in this country.
I have no desire to go through life worrying about restenosis and having to raise thousands of dollars to go break laws in another country just to save my life. I have no desire to commit suicide. But suicide is a symptom of MS and the one that most of your neurologists hope you will take, when you as well run out of drug options. If they can't make anything off you, they don't need you around. Harsh but true. For the last 3 years I wake up each morning looking for reasons to stay alive and not let this disease kill me off just making me another statistic. It is an exhausting search everyday, but now as I feel the restenosis happening and the progression of disability advancing again, I also know I was under treated and have faulty valves. I don't have 5 years left.
I have no reason to look for excuses to stay alive when I have so many more reasons to just end it now. I have lived longer than any known person with my form of MS. I figure I have lived 3 years longer than the ones before me. I have permanent neurological damage in numerous places that won't be repaired. I will never work again which means the three years of teeth shattering seizures, is leaving me with a mouth full of jagged edges that do a great job of ripping my flesh apart because I can't even afford to have them pulled to be able to gum my food. And yet I smile. But I smile because I feel the progression returning and that means I won't have to put up with it near as long as I thought. I am thinking at best, a year, but that might be wishful thinking because no one knows more on how fast this can progress than me.
I no longer go to the doctor because there is nothing he can do for me or would if he could. Yes, even my doctor would let me die before risking his career. I know this and I accept that he is a coward like all other doctors. I no longer care about blood tests and MRI's to prove I was right. Those along with many other secrets will die with me. I don't take vitamins or eat healthy. I have no reason to. My entire life, anything I have done, was done for someone else. It has never been in my nature to be any different. Now I am. I have lived up to my promise and now I will do something for me. Rest before I die. I will never get away from the daily stress that is killing me faster, but I also don't need to pile more onto me making me miserable, killing me faster, and will be of no benefit to me. I am sorry if that seems selfish to some, but I think I have more than deserved this.
People are not born smart. They are born with a brain. How that brain develops and how it is used is the key. If you feed a brain lies and propaganda, and not teach it to learn for itself, you get an idiot with an under developed brain. A good example of this would be George W Bush with a published IQ of 95. An IQ of 120 is considered average intelligence. My IQ tests since high school have ranged from 142 to 165. On a bad day, I am still above genius. But I am still stupid. Instead of living a life by making other people rich, I should have done it for myself. My only true regret in life now out in the open. That way I could at least leave Chrissy with something other than debt.
Humanity as a whole has pretty much run it's course. Greed has proven to be our downfall. Stupidity feeds that greed. And the stupidity comes from the under developed brains that believe what they are told. I have no other word for these people other than idiot. Se here are some blunt truths, like it or not.
If you believe your doctor has your best interest at heart.. you are an idiot.
If you think that poisons like Tysabri, being injected into your veins is helping you.. you are an idiot.
If you think pharmaceutical companies are here to help.. you are an idiot.
If you think that your government would never hurt you... you are an idiot.
If you think that your government would never lie to you... you are an idiot.
If you believe that charities for MS. Cancer, etc. help people ... you are an idiot.
If you believe that charities for MS. Cancer, etc. help people ... you are an idiot.
If you believe the War on Drugs is a good thing... you are an idiot.
If you think that Osama Bin Laden had anything to do with 9/11 ... well... you are the ultimate idiot.
Now as harsh as that may be, you will notice that the only way these people became idiots is because they have that whole under developed brain thing going on. It is not their fault. Someone needs these idiots. Without the idiots, you would only have a bunch of greedy people trying to screw each other. Remember, we may not be born smart, but we are born greedy. But the cool thing about a brain is that it always wants to learn, and a lot of these 'idiots' are getting the lights turned on and also seeing the truth. Unfortunately as the truth emerges and develops so does the risk of retaliation for being lied to so long. It isn't a prediction, it is inevitable that greed will drive the people against their governments with violence. But that is okay as the governments are already preparing for this as well. The US is getting FEMA internment camps and Canada is getting super prisons.
So I am going to quit while I am ahead and still the winner. I will no longer be spending 80 hours a week digging out the truth. I have nothing else to prove. I will leave the hundreds of Facebook groups and other forums I belong to. I have committed myself to helping finish 2 projects, one for my brother and the second one being the sequel to the first Rick Simpson movie Run From The Cure. Their time is limited. I will still use my Facebook account to converse with friends. I will answer questions truthfully with continued sarcasm, but if you are an idiot, I will also tell you so. If you want on my friend's list, add me. If you no longer want to be on my friend's list, goodbye.
Now as harsh as that may be, you will notice that the only way these people became idiots is because they have that whole under developed brain thing going on. It is not their fault. Someone needs these idiots. Without the idiots, you would only have a bunch of greedy people trying to screw each other. Remember, we may not be born smart, but we are born greedy. But the cool thing about a brain is that it always wants to learn, and a lot of these 'idiots' are getting the lights turned on and also seeing the truth. Unfortunately as the truth emerges and develops so does the risk of retaliation for being lied to so long. It isn't a prediction, it is inevitable that greed will drive the people against their governments with violence. But that is okay as the governments are already preparing for this as well. The US is getting FEMA internment camps and Canada is getting super prisons.
So I am going to quit while I am ahead and still the winner. I will no longer be spending 80 hours a week digging out the truth. I have nothing else to prove. I will leave the hundreds of Facebook groups and other forums I belong to. I have committed myself to helping finish 2 projects, one for my brother and the second one being the sequel to the first Rick Simpson movie Run From The Cure. Their time is limited. I will still use my Facebook account to converse with friends. I will answer questions truthfully with continued sarcasm, but if you are an idiot, I will also tell you so. If you want on my friend's list, add me. If you no longer want to be on my friend's list, goodbye.
Now, I am going to sit back, relax, and enjoy what time I have left until the progression hits my internal organs again. I actually said this years ago and at the time I said when the time comes I will be making sure I am sitting back comfortably to watch it all unfold. While smiling and quietly saying, "I told you so."
It's time for the fight to continue without me.
It's time for the fight to continue without me.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
The Most Feared Man in the Province of Nova Scotia has MS
Today, it became official. The most feared man in this province is not some gun toting terrorist, nor is it a corporate big wig raping the province of it's resources. It isn't even one of our fine police officers that use tazers and kill sick people. It is me, a dieing man that speaks the truth.
Today across the country, people with Multiple Sclerosis are rallying at their respective Province Houses to raise awareness that the neurologists and Health Ministers are allowing people to suffer and die without allowing them to even have a chance. Every group across the country invited their respective Health Ministers to meet with them, except for the province of Nova Scotia. Maureen MacDonald instead requested to have a "secret private" meeting with some of the attendees at the rally with the sole stipulation that I not be there. This request was made in realization from following our Facebook pages that we would not be asking for a meeting. We have no need to meet with her as we already know the outcome.
What makes me now the officially most feared man in the province is because others have been threatening the life of Maureen MacDonald and I am erroneously being blamed for it. That doesn't bother me as much as you might thing it would. I freely admit to insulting her, exposing her lies, and yes I have even gone so far to make nasty pictures and cartoons of her, but I can also stand before God and make the claim that I have never threatened her. I have maintained from day one that I am more intelligent then her and her supposed expert advisers. It would be very stupid of me to prove myself wrong by breaking the law.
I am not stupid. I know I have been investigated, and probably still am. That just means that they also realize that, 1. I have not broken any laws or I would not be here writing this to you, and 2. I have not lied.
Yesterday during an interview with the National Post, the reporter made an astonishing realization. Although what I write in this blog might look like the rantings of an idiot at times, I am in no way one. My writing looks like it is filled with rage and emotion but never is. So my answer to the reporter was, "I write to provoke emotion, it must work as I didn't call you for this interview." His response was that I was right. People that know me from the internet who do get to meet me online are usually a bit stunned at first as I am not what they expect. I am quiet, reserved, and extremely laid back. Until I am provoked. But I am also much funnier in person.
Unlike many of the people I have been forced to deal with, I have morals that I live by. One is to never cause a violent act against a woman, and in 48 years, although many deserved it, I have never physically harmed any female. Hurting some emotionally I sadly admit to, but never physically. So while my friends are educating the masses on the lies they are being fed, and the Health Minister is explaining how dangerous of a threat I am to her trigger happy police officers SHE called to protect her, she is actually fearing the wrong person. And that makes her an even bigger idiot. I am staying home and writing this to you instead.
Call it a dawning realization, or total paranoia, but knowing they watch our Facebook groups with either their spies or hacking, (yes the police do hack Facebook accounts), I realize why I am feared. The reason for this also causes me to be concerned. The NS Health Minister condemned me to Death last November. I cheated her and lived. She did the same thing to Bill Peart and he died. I am the living proof that she committed murder and proves her 'experts' wrong. Knowing this, I am not sure I want to be in a room full of armed people that in this Province shoot first then ask the questions. And surly not when I can be that damaging to that many peoples credibility and reputations by Heaven forbid, staying alive.
My private laugh comes in the form that while she is fearing big bad ol me, the people that truly may want to harm her are still out there and she is hiding from the wrong person. But regardless, we never wanted a meeting with her because from day one she has only ever been a puppet doing what she is told. I know this and so do most of the ones at the rally. The ones that she should be fearing are the ones that think she is the one controlling the strings. In actuality I don't think I will need to do much more anyway. As the truth emerges, her stupid stance of hiding behind semantics will be her downfall.
So what happens now? Not a damn thing. I have told her time and time again that I do have the out for her that can save lives, her reputation, and even her political career. She refuses to listen and now fears me. At one time I could also have saved the neurologists, but they have been too greedy and have gone too far to be saved. Of course that will die with me as in the end we will win anyway and she will get what she deserves.
Contrary to popular belief, I do not have a death wish. I am not going to make myself be an open target to the ones that fear me. If I was suicidal, I would have been gone long before now especially knowing that with my condition I can be dead in less than a week by "natural causes" anytime I want. It would be an extremely horrid and painful death, but in the end would have have the lasting comfort of not being subjected to the lies and greed destroying the lives of the people in this province. I may not want to live, but I don't want to die... yet.
Whether it is ever allowed in this country or not, I have no intentions of ever having the procedure done again. As upsetting as that may be to some, you also must realize that the only reason I consented to the first one was to prove if it could actually save someone from dieing. Well, with the procedure done on Nov. 20, 2010 and it now being May 2011 where I was not supposed to live past April, I have proven exactly what I wanted to prove. The CCSVI treatment CAN save lives. Living like this is just not for me.
This just means that at the current rate my disability may be progressing possibly due to restenosis, I will try to enjoy what little life I have left. Unfortunately for you all, it also means you are stuck with my ramblings for at least another six months or so. Maybe longer even longer if I stay away from the insanity.
I am just not backing down from this fight until the truth is known to all.. because I am already killing myself by participating, I have nothing to lose.
Today across the country, people with Multiple Sclerosis are rallying at their respective Province Houses to raise awareness that the neurologists and Health Ministers are allowing people to suffer and die without allowing them to even have a chance. Every group across the country invited their respective Health Ministers to meet with them, except for the province of Nova Scotia. Maureen MacDonald instead requested to have a "secret private" meeting with some of the attendees at the rally with the sole stipulation that I not be there. This request was made in realization from following our Facebook pages that we would not be asking for a meeting. We have no need to meet with her as we already know the outcome.
What makes me now the officially most feared man in the province is because others have been threatening the life of Maureen MacDonald and I am erroneously being blamed for it. That doesn't bother me as much as you might thing it would. I freely admit to insulting her, exposing her lies, and yes I have even gone so far to make nasty pictures and cartoons of her, but I can also stand before God and make the claim that I have never threatened her. I have maintained from day one that I am more intelligent then her and her supposed expert advisers. It would be very stupid of me to prove myself wrong by breaking the law.
I am not stupid. I know I have been investigated, and probably still am. That just means that they also realize that, 1. I have not broken any laws or I would not be here writing this to you, and 2. I have not lied.
Yesterday during an interview with the National Post, the reporter made an astonishing realization. Although what I write in this blog might look like the rantings of an idiot at times, I am in no way one. My writing looks like it is filled with rage and emotion but never is. So my answer to the reporter was, "I write to provoke emotion, it must work as I didn't call you for this interview." His response was that I was right. People that know me from the internet who do get to meet me online are usually a bit stunned at first as I am not what they expect. I am quiet, reserved, and extremely laid back. Until I am provoked. But I am also much funnier in person.
Unlike many of the people I have been forced to deal with, I have morals that I live by. One is to never cause a violent act against a woman, and in 48 years, although many deserved it, I have never physically harmed any female. Hurting some emotionally I sadly admit to, but never physically. So while my friends are educating the masses on the lies they are being fed, and the Health Minister is explaining how dangerous of a threat I am to her trigger happy police officers SHE called to protect her, she is actually fearing the wrong person. And that makes her an even bigger idiot. I am staying home and writing this to you instead.
Call it a dawning realization, or total paranoia, but knowing they watch our Facebook groups with either their spies or hacking, (yes the police do hack Facebook accounts), I realize why I am feared. The reason for this also causes me to be concerned. The NS Health Minister condemned me to Death last November. I cheated her and lived. She did the same thing to Bill Peart and he died. I am the living proof that she committed murder and proves her 'experts' wrong. Knowing this, I am not sure I want to be in a room full of armed people that in this Province shoot first then ask the questions. And surly not when I can be that damaging to that many peoples credibility and reputations by Heaven forbid, staying alive.
My private laugh comes in the form that while she is fearing big bad ol me, the people that truly may want to harm her are still out there and she is hiding from the wrong person. But regardless, we never wanted a meeting with her because from day one she has only ever been a puppet doing what she is told. I know this and so do most of the ones at the rally. The ones that she should be fearing are the ones that think she is the one controlling the strings. In actuality I don't think I will need to do much more anyway. As the truth emerges, her stupid stance of hiding behind semantics will be her downfall.
So what happens now? Not a damn thing. I have told her time and time again that I do have the out for her that can save lives, her reputation, and even her political career. She refuses to listen and now fears me. At one time I could also have saved the neurologists, but they have been too greedy and have gone too far to be saved. Of course that will die with me as in the end we will win anyway and she will get what she deserves.
Contrary to popular belief, I do not have a death wish. I am not going to make myself be an open target to the ones that fear me. If I was suicidal, I would have been gone long before now especially knowing that with my condition I can be dead in less than a week by "natural causes" anytime I want. It would be an extremely horrid and painful death, but in the end would have have the lasting comfort of not being subjected to the lies and greed destroying the lives of the people in this province. I may not want to live, but I don't want to die... yet.
Whether it is ever allowed in this country or not, I have no intentions of ever having the procedure done again. As upsetting as that may be to some, you also must realize that the only reason I consented to the first one was to prove if it could actually save someone from dieing. Well, with the procedure done on Nov. 20, 2010 and it now being May 2011 where I was not supposed to live past April, I have proven exactly what I wanted to prove. The CCSVI treatment CAN save lives. Living like this is just not for me.
This just means that at the current rate my disability may be progressing possibly due to restenosis, I will try to enjoy what little life I have left. Unfortunately for you all, it also means you are stuck with my ramblings for at least another six months or so. Maybe longer even longer if I stay away from the insanity.
I am just not backing down from this fight until the truth is known to all.. because I am already killing myself by participating, I have nothing to lose.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Reasons to NOT get angioplasty for MS
Recently I ran a poll on Facebook asking for reasons given to NOT allow/recommend angioplasty to correct disrupted blood flow known as CCSVI (Chronic Cerebral Spinal Venous Insufficiency) for people with Multiple Sclerosis. For fun, I left it open to allow others to add reasons for others to vote for as well. I am not going to go through all of them as some were obviously the "true" answers and would never have been told to a patient.
I will take the top five and answer them with some simple logic.
1. MS is not vascular. - There are two theories on MS, Vascular and Auto-immune. The vascular theory is the older and was first identified in 1868 by French physician and anatomist Charot. In 1882, Ribbert suggested the cause of MS lay in the blocking of capillaries by minute thrombi. Social Constructionism and Medical Sociology: a study of the vascular theory of multiple sclerosis. The auto-immune theory emerged much later, coincidently during the chemical pharmaceutical push in the 1940's and 50's when it was realized that a lot of money could be made with drugs. Due to the Neurological Societies position of placing themselves upon the pedestal proclaiming themselves God based on the fact that everything is controlled neurologically, they successfully caused the Vascular Theory to be ignored. In 2008, it was revived with the ability to test, diagnose, and treat a vascular condition that may or may not be linked to MS, but has improved the quality of life for over 90% of the patients treated. The drugs for the auto-immune theory, have never been able to make that claim. Ever. The vascular theory may not be proven yet but it works better than the auto-immune theory that has never been proven as well.
2. It is not proven safe. - The CCSVI treatment is a simple out patient routine medically referred to as Angioplasty. The first angioplasties done were performed about 3000 BC in Egypt. In 2001, almost 2 million angioplasties were preformed worldwide, with an estimated increase of 8% annually. In 2002, they celebrated their 25th anniversary of doing angioplasty on patients that were awake for the procedure. History of Angioplasty This procedure is performed daily in hospitals for both the arterial and venous systems, but is only considered unsafe if you have Multiple Sclerosis.
3. Relief is from placebo effect. - Placebo usually implies drugs and they are used very often in trials. By taking half of the patients in a drug trial, and giving them a placebo while the others get a real drug, for some reason makes it correct as no one would know if they got the drug or the placebo. When this happens, some patients on the placebo claim they feel better since starting the drug. This is known as the placebo effect. A surgical placebo is the result of a doctor doing a surgery on a patient, then informing the patient that it was successful and they are all better now. In both cases, the placebo is talking about subjective symptoms such as pain. Neither have been proven to act on un-subjective symptoms. The best example to dispel the placebo theory.... If a person with MS can not stand up with their eyes closed due to balance issues, they are not falling over because they "think" they should. They fall because the centre of the brain that controls balance is in distress. I was one that was never able to stand in the shower and close my eyes without causing serious damage in the fall. Immediately after the CCSVI procedure, I like many others regained full balance which is an impossibility with any placebo effect.
4. Not proven effective. - Not proven effective for who? The 12000 plus treated patients with over 90% claiming an improvement to their quality of life will disagree with this statement. On the flip side of the coin, no MS drug has ever been proven effective, but have effectively killed some of their patients. By not allowing the procedure, it will help make sure it can never be proven effective.
5. No relation between CCSVI and MS. - Of course the same could be said about the auto-immune theory and MS. They have had 70 years to prove that relationship and have dismally failed. Being that the CCSVI procedure is still in it's infancy and more time will tell, initial testing shows that over 90% tested with confirmed diagnosis of MS do in fact have blocked or disrupted venous outflow from the brain. Around 40% of the "healthy" (mostly patient family members) ones tested also showed evidence of CCSVI. Unfortunately, that could also mean that those 40% are people just waiting for symptoms to manifest.
Those would be the top five. I purposely left one obvious answer out in hopes that someone else would say it but no one jumped on it so I will add it now.
a. No clinical trials done for proof. - That would be because they do NOT do clinical trials for surgical procedures. The only evidence of a surgical clinical trial that I can find documented evidence on was for Carpel Tunnel Syndrome. No they did not operate on healthy controls. They surveyed treated patients in order to find which of the many styles of the procedure would be most effective. Exactly one of the things treated patients want done but are being ignored. Following is an excerpt of a conversation with my neurologist;
Me: They do not do clinical trials for surgical procedures.
Dr: They do so! (actually yelled it at me)
Me: Really? Where do they get the healthy controls for the brain surgery trials? (No one is that stupid except maybe my neurologist.)
Dr: *dumbest look I have ever seen on a person.*
There is only one reason why people with MS are being denied this treatment... greed. MS patients are cash cows so of course the ones that stand to lose the most will fight the hardest. The neurologists and pharmaceutical companies are fighting as hard as they can to keep the truth hidden in order to save their sources of income. The patients like me are fighting to save their lives.
Who do you think is going to fight harder?
I will take the top five and answer them with some simple logic.
1. MS is not vascular. - There are two theories on MS, Vascular and Auto-immune. The vascular theory is the older and was first identified in 1868 by French physician and anatomist Charot. In 1882, Ribbert suggested the cause of MS lay in the blocking of capillaries by minute thrombi. Social Constructionism and Medical Sociology: a study of the vascular theory of multiple sclerosis. The auto-immune theory emerged much later, coincidently during the chemical pharmaceutical push in the 1940's and 50's when it was realized that a lot of money could be made with drugs. Due to the Neurological Societies position of placing themselves upon the pedestal proclaiming themselves God based on the fact that everything is controlled neurologically, they successfully caused the Vascular Theory to be ignored. In 2008, it was revived with the ability to test, diagnose, and treat a vascular condition that may or may not be linked to MS, but has improved the quality of life for over 90% of the patients treated. The drugs for the auto-immune theory, have never been able to make that claim. Ever. The vascular theory may not be proven yet but it works better than the auto-immune theory that has never been proven as well.
2. It is not proven safe. - The CCSVI treatment is a simple out patient routine medically referred to as Angioplasty. The first angioplasties done were performed about 3000 BC in Egypt. In 2001, almost 2 million angioplasties were preformed worldwide, with an estimated increase of 8% annually. In 2002, they celebrated their 25th anniversary of doing angioplasty on patients that were awake for the procedure. History of Angioplasty This procedure is performed daily in hospitals for both the arterial and venous systems, but is only considered unsafe if you have Multiple Sclerosis.
3. Relief is from placebo effect. - Placebo usually implies drugs and they are used very often in trials. By taking half of the patients in a drug trial, and giving them a placebo while the others get a real drug, for some reason makes it correct as no one would know if they got the drug or the placebo. When this happens, some patients on the placebo claim they feel better since starting the drug. This is known as the placebo effect. A surgical placebo is the result of a doctor doing a surgery on a patient, then informing the patient that it was successful and they are all better now. In both cases, the placebo is talking about subjective symptoms such as pain. Neither have been proven to act on un-subjective symptoms. The best example to dispel the placebo theory.... If a person with MS can not stand up with their eyes closed due to balance issues, they are not falling over because they "think" they should. They fall because the centre of the brain that controls balance is in distress. I was one that was never able to stand in the shower and close my eyes without causing serious damage in the fall. Immediately after the CCSVI procedure, I like many others regained full balance which is an impossibility with any placebo effect.
4. Not proven effective. - Not proven effective for who? The 12000 plus treated patients with over 90% claiming an improvement to their quality of life will disagree with this statement. On the flip side of the coin, no MS drug has ever been proven effective, but have effectively killed some of their patients. By not allowing the procedure, it will help make sure it can never be proven effective.
5. No relation between CCSVI and MS. - Of course the same could be said about the auto-immune theory and MS. They have had 70 years to prove that relationship and have dismally failed. Being that the CCSVI procedure is still in it's infancy and more time will tell, initial testing shows that over 90% tested with confirmed diagnosis of MS do in fact have blocked or disrupted venous outflow from the brain. Around 40% of the "healthy" (mostly patient family members) ones tested also showed evidence of CCSVI. Unfortunately, that could also mean that those 40% are people just waiting for symptoms to manifest.
Those would be the top five. I purposely left one obvious answer out in hopes that someone else would say it but no one jumped on it so I will add it now.
a. No clinical trials done for proof. - That would be because they do NOT do clinical trials for surgical procedures. The only evidence of a surgical clinical trial that I can find documented evidence on was for Carpel Tunnel Syndrome. No they did not operate on healthy controls. They surveyed treated patients in order to find which of the many styles of the procedure would be most effective. Exactly one of the things treated patients want done but are being ignored. Following is an excerpt of a conversation with my neurologist;
Me: They do not do clinical trials for surgical procedures.
Dr: They do so! (actually yelled it at me)
Me: Really? Where do they get the healthy controls for the brain surgery trials? (No one is that stupid except maybe my neurologist.)
Dr: *dumbest look I have ever seen on a person.*
There is only one reason why people with MS are being denied this treatment... greed. MS patients are cash cows so of course the ones that stand to lose the most will fight the hardest. The neurologists and pharmaceutical companies are fighting as hard as they can to keep the truth hidden in order to save their sources of income. The patients like me are fighting to save their lives.
Who do you think is going to fight harder?
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